When you lose Hope.
When you lose Hope.
Do you ever feel exhausted by everything that you do?
Feeling like there’s nothing you’re good at, you lose all hope,
You put in so much effort but nothing works,
Like you’re stuck in reverse,
You are trying to change something but there is no way.
And you get tired and drop everything,
Just sit at one place and try to process and except,
But you can’t, because that’s not what you wanted to do,
And then everything seems useless and ridiculous.
Yet the worst part, you have to wake up another day,
And do that all over again,
I’ve felt that too,
But what if I told you there is an escape,
Will you believe me?
Let’s check it out then……….
I don’t know where should I start,
Yesterday, I was so sure of what I wanted, but today is different,
What I am doing is not the same as what I want to do and it changes everything.
It’s been a while and I can’t decide what’s right for me and what’s not.
I am sitting on my desk, writing down the things I want to do and I can’t get anywhere with it.
I feel alone most of the times, because I don’t think anyone understands me,
And if I try to explain, they just won’t take me seriously. I really hope they would,
It’s like something is eating me inside out and I can’t do anything about it.
I was lost in my thoughts when mom called me for dinner,
I didn’t realize how late it was, and everyone had already finished eating,
After completing my dinner, I helped mom with the dishes and then went to bed.
I didn’t speak much to anyone these days, and no one even noticed that I was upset,
At my workplace, I had a few people that I talked to but they were merely acquaintances,
It wasn’t a problem that very few people were in my life, the problem was that I wasn’t present in my life.
Everything felt stupid and I just wasn’t sure what was I going to do,
Then one day I decided to run away,
Run away from the responsibilities, the thoughts, the chaos in my mind.
But I couldn’t, I cared too much, and that was the major reason why I felt stuck,
Anyway, stopping to care wasn’t the option, and I continued living like that,
It wasn’t easy, and not because I didn’t like it, but because I couldn’t accept it.
So I started searching for ways that I could change my existence,
Somehow I can dim down the pain and misery, and start something that gives meaning to myself,
I searched and searched but got nothing, and now I felt worse than ever.
I started questioning everything around me, and grew bitter and reactive,
But most of all, I grew distant from everyone and that led me to isolation,
And now I started looking for ways by which I could escape everything,
I wanted to escape the reality but that was impossible,
Everything around me was continuously reminding me that I was a failure,
I started hating myself, and everyone else. Started blaming others for my misery,
But deep down somewhere in my heart, I didn’t wanted to give up,
It was like a voice continuously telling me that there was a way and somehow you can be free.
So I searched again and again and stumbled upon something that caught my attention,
It was a travel opportunity along with work, and I realized I’ve always wanted to travel,
I applied but I didn’t got in, which was a bummer. But then I looked for opportunities that offered the same,
That, there was the moment when my hope restored,
I just wanted something to look up to, to aspire for, something to desire.
- No matter how bad things get, if you have something that you truly and deeply want, you will always find a way to get it.
- Hold on to hope, always, even a little bit of it. It can be miraculous.
- Don’t let your surroundings get the better of you, if you want out then get out.
- It is hard, it is depressing, it is exhausting, But it is WORTH it.
- So if you think you can, you CAN.
It’s good to see you again,
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