If I Fall
If I fall
Hello! I’m starting this new series where I’ll be posting fiction,
A new post will be coming up every Sunday,
Stay tuned, like and share if you want me to continue the story.
I wanted to do this for a long time and I finally started writing it.
I hope you like and enjoy every word of it.
Also, the title is not official, so if you have anything in mind, do tell.
And one more thing, if you want me to make podcast episodes of this series just let me know in the comments.
Not knowing where to go, I ended up sitting alone beside the river. It has always been my hiding spot.
I think no one knows about this place, since no one ever comes here,
And that’s why it is so special to me, it’s always calm,
A place where I can be by myself and not care about the cruel world.
Although I have a caring family, but sometimes it just isn’t enough,
They think, they can protect me from everything but maybe they are wrong.
The demons they try to keep me away from, are not around but inside me,
Who will tell them that, who is going to save me from me?
Everyday, these thoughts eat me alive and I can’t help but fall into them,
Deep within my soul there is this darkness that consumes me, I’m attracted to the people who always hurt me.
It’s like I want myself to get hurt, I feel like I don’t deserve happiness, and I don’t even know why.
I don’t know why I’m thinking these things, I don’t know why I’m here.
The river sounds so calm, I want my head to be clam like that,
Can the river help me? Maybe it can, if I just lie around and keep looking at it,
The water is so still, the silence is so beautiful. I think its calling me, I should reach out to it.
Why can’t I hold it? Please let me hold you, please don’t slip away,
And then it consumed me, that’s when I realized it wanted me, no one ever wanted me before.
This feels good, this feels right, I will let it have me.
I closed my eyes and sank deep down into the embrace of silence, into peace.
Having a strong hold of water around me, I fell into deep slumber.
Drowning every second towards what felt like heaven.
to be continued…