Chapter- 4 | Don’t try to fit in
Short fiction story
It’s been a few days since I visited the lake,
I used to go there all the time.
But since the incident, it’s quite difficult for me. It is almost like I don’t trust myself anymore.
Growing apart from people is understandable, but in my case, I feel that I’m growing apart from myself. Like I’m loosing myself.
People never understood me quite well and that was fine when it was like that,
But now, it’s like I don’t even understand myself. I don’t know me at all.
What is happening to me? Aren’t there enough bullies in my life, why have I started bullying myself.
Everyday I wake up, it’s a struggle for me because I know what I am going to face outside.
No matter how hard I try to be like them, others around me never even try to accept me.
And I’ve grown not to care about that, but deep down it still hurts.
When I’m inside the campus of my university, I feel every eye on me. But no one ever tries to befriend me.
I stand out as the wired kid, but it doesn’t matter because I choose to be alone most of the times.
But recently, I’ve been feeling like I’ve left my side.
I’m lost in the chaos I’ve created inside my head
And there’s no one who can get me out of there, not even me.
As I walk towards my classroom, an unbearable conscience of being unaccepted draws over me with every step.
Keeping my head low, I try to avoid everything around me as usual,
“What are you so caught up on Angie?” a voice called, startling me to the very core.
People usually passed their comments for enjoying my shyness and I never looked up at them but this was a different voice.
I sensed it but I wasn’t sure if I was right,
So I turned around to see who called me.
And it was him, standing in front of me with his wicked smile.
“You weren’t thinking about me, were you?” he said,
And for the first time in my life, I felt the presence of someone just as weird as me.
to be continued…